I was fortunate to have my mom stay with us for a week, and then Joe's mom take care of us for a few days. Both of our moms spoiled us rotten, and I was able to stay on the couch for most of the day and nurse and hold Amelia. They made me meals, did laundry, grocery shopped, changed her diaper, etc. Lynn, my mother-in-law, left yesterday and I had lined up a dear friend of mine to visit us this a.m. She came down with a cold, unfortunately, so we both agreed it was better for her not to visit. So, we are on our own...
Amelia has had long stretches of being awake lately, including one last night. Her tummy was bothering her (I'm learning what NOT to eat!), and she was uncomfortable for a few hours. I did get some sleep - probably 5 hours total - and we woke up ready to face our first day on our own.
I miss our moms!! Getting breakfast, changing her diaper (it still is uncomfortable to bend down and sit), going to the bathroom, getting dressed, etc. are a challenge with a newborn. I started watching a movie and realized that Amelia, too, was staring at the TV. I called Joe to ask when we should stop watching tv with her around, because I don't want her mesmorized at such a young age. However, to me, its a savior right now. I can see how our best laid plans can be challenging to live out.
Joe's company sent us a blanket with her name on it. I cried when I saw it. Her name is so sweet to me ~ Amelia. Of course, I cry when I think about my birth, or pregnancy, or even laundry for that matter. Well, not laundry yet, but I'm sure that will happen one of these days. Its also hard for me not to clean up. Learning to be with the mess, and just rest and enjoy Amelia is another challenge. We can't wait for daddy to get home from work...
So, we are taking it hour by hour. I may hire a post-partum doula for a few afternoons to help ease the transition and give me a break to take a shower, or bath, or nap. I am not so good at asking or soliciting help, so I keep putting this off. Joe and I decided to see how today goes ~ my "trial day", and then to determine what kind of support I need.
So, there it is. Ramblings of a very tired mama. Not sure if I'll keep this blog going, or start a new one, or what. Not even sure if anyone is reading it right now. If you're out there, let me know.
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I'm out here and reading! It's my way of feeling close to you. Like I said, I wanted to give you some time before I called because I know how overwhelming the adjustment can be. Let me know when a (relatively) good time for you is and I'll give you a call. I can't wait to hear your voice and Amelia's coo!
I'm out here too! I think it is so wonderful you're putting everything out there. If you need me, I'm here. I have some down time right now and can help out if you need some company or someone to hold Amelia so you can shower :)
I am here too and I read your blog to Kate everytime it comes out...pleeaassseee don't stop blogging :) It's SO nice to share some of your experiences with you.
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