Today is my birthday, and I've wondered for several months if I might share it with the bean. I will admit that I am pleased not to, although I am eager for the bean to arrive. I love to create meaningful, sacred birthdays for myself. If I were to share the day with my child, I envision messy cupcakes, running around, and perhaps not carving out the time or space for reflection and celebration.
As I look back on this year, I am incredibly grateful for my path. A year ago, we were beginning our visits to Boston IVF, wondering if being parents was 1, 2, 3 or more years away. I began to cut back my work hours last November, and dream of my own coaching practice and taking a year to take care of myself. And, now, here I am! There have been so many unforeseen treasures through this pregnancy journey and life transition.
What stands out in my mind is the women that I've met, or reconnected with, this year. From the women I've coached, to old friends who reflect the best of me, to new friends who have shared their wisdom and kindness, I am blessed. I also feel a renewed appreciation for my family, who offers me support and acceptance no matter what choices I make.
This has been the sweetest year of my life in so many ways. I have come to know myself on deeper levels, and enjoyed my company even more than before. I am pursuing my passion and purpose, and am surrounded by others doing the same. Even though there are still plenty of areas of growth and healing for me, I feel that I accomplished what truly mattered this year - inner well-being. And its no surprise that the bean "took root" during this time.
As I look ahead to next year, my intention is to be gentle with myself as I learn to care for my baby and to continue to tend to the other important areas of my life. I want to embrace the awkwardness, the uncertainty, the humor of it all. To allow myself to be imperfect, to learn, and to trust that I am fully capable of providing my child with all the love and support he or she needs to flourish... even in the midst of what might seem like chaos.
As I look back on this year, I am incredibly grateful for my path. A year ago, we were beginning our visits to Boston IVF, wondering if being parents was 1, 2, 3 or more years away. I began to cut back my work hours last November, and dream of my own coaching practice and taking a year to take care of myself. And, now, here I am! There have been so many unforeseen treasures through this pregnancy journey and life transition.
What stands out in my mind is the women that I've met, or reconnected with, this year. From the women I've coached, to old friends who reflect the best of me, to new friends who have shared their wisdom and kindness, I am blessed. I also feel a renewed appreciation for my family, who offers me support and acceptance no matter what choices I make.
This has been the sweetest year of my life in so many ways. I have come to know myself on deeper levels, and enjoyed my company even more than before. I am pursuing my passion and purpose, and am surrounded by others doing the same. Even though there are still plenty of areas of growth and healing for me, I feel that I accomplished what truly mattered this year - inner well-being. And its no surprise that the bean "took root" during this time.
As I look ahead to next year, my intention is to be gentle with myself as I learn to care for my baby and to continue to tend to the other important areas of my life. I want to embrace the awkwardness, the uncertainty, the humor of it all. To allow myself to be imperfect, to learn, and to trust that I am fully capable of providing my child with all the love and support he or she needs to flourish... even in the midst of what might seem like chaos.
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Happy Birthday from me and Kate!...and I am assuming that Lumpy would want to wish you a happy birthday too, if he/she could speak...or breathe, for that matter (they are so damn dependent at this age)
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