Flips and Turns

The bean found a new position as of late - from head-down and ready-to-labor to either a bum or a head up by my ribs. I woke up to use the bathroom two nights ago and there it was! A lump right under my ribs. It amused me somehow, though I am concerned that the baby moves back down to labor-ready positioning soon.

The other flips and turns in my life seem to be in my stomach. Yes, good ole acid reflux continues to be a challenge. If I am a student to what is showing up in my life, I can see how the acid reflux is teaching me. Throughout my pregnancy, as my acid reflux has worsened, I humbly admit that I continue to "sneak" foods or continue to eat larger portions, and then suffer with acid reflux. I have shared with some of you that it doesn't seem to matter what I eat. That has been true to some degree; However, now that I've eliminated some of my favorite, triggering foods, I see how much more control I actually have over it. There lies my lesson. How often in life do we feel like we have little control, when we discover that, in reality, we do have the power to create more relief, or joy, or whatever it is that we seek.

Now, there are days when I am following a careful anti-acid, high protein, high nutrient diet and still find myself in lots of discomfort. Someone recently said to me, "maybe its about giving into it." Ahhhh.... riding it out. Giving into it. Letting it be. Sounds like not only life training, but also labor preparation training... doesn't it??

So, today I am including acid reflux in my gratitude list. It is asking me to be impeccable with what I put into my body. It is asking that I eat foods that feed me, and the baby, and not acting on my momentary cravings. It is keeping me accountable to better nutrition and a simpler, more thoughtful diet. Those are all good things.

And, when its all said and done, I will yell a huge "hallelujah!" And then dive into the richest piece of chocolate cake that I can find. Oh, and take this lesson with me :).